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[There had been a simpler time, several years before when Bren hadn't yet known Trent Ikithon, a time when he was thoroughly and blissfully unaware of the things that existed in the dark, when the ideas of werewolves and vampires and other creatures that ought to have been nothing more than fairy tale fodder. Instead, his paths had crossed with Trent and everything had changed. He'd been thrown into a small walled courtyard one night, under the light of a full moon, and he had not been alone. That was the first time he had met a werewolf. Bren remembered the bite, still had the scar of it on one forearm, remembered the confusion and the terror -- both of which were nothing compared to the full moon that followed the month after, the first time he'd transformed. He remembered the pain of his entire body breaking and reshaping itself, the fear of losing himself entirely. He'd blacked out that night, woken up naked and aching as if he'd been run over by a bus.

It had been the same very moon since, except that piece by piece, bit by bit, he held onto some small shred of himself during the transformation. Trent Ikithon had explained that all this was for Bren's own good, that he was safer here than anywhere else. that there were vampires who would tear him apart on sight, one in particular, a singular monster who Trent seemed to have a personal loathing for. Bren tried to probe why any vampire, never mind a particular one, would have any interest in him. No explanation was ever given except that 'the Shadowhand will never have you. Not in this life or the next. I will see to that.'

Bren had no idea what that meant. Before all this, the only strange thing in his life were recurring dreams -- and oh they were beautiful things. Arms that were secure and safe around him, tender and gentle but not warm. The soft lilt of a voice that assured him everything would be well, that wherever he went he would be found again. Trent had hated the dreams and had done his best to cast them out of Bren's conscious awareness. Now they were barely shadows, things he could remember the feeling of more than the details. It hurt even trying to recall them, so he didn't.

This past moon Bren had made his escape after he transformed, finally aware enough of himself that he had his chance. He was free. That was the only thought in his mind right now and it repeated in echoed mantra over and over again as he tried to keep himself from spiraling into a breakdown. It had been years since he'd been out, actually out in the world, not kept with Trent Ikithon's control, trapped within the grounds of that monster's manor. He was, after all, Trent's pet project, for whatever reasons the old bastard had. It didn't matter. Back in that direction lay only pain and isolation. He wouldn't go back.

Of course, he didn't really have a plan to go forward either, really. Even before he'd been captured and turned, he hadn't had any family left, few friends, and he'd been out of the world for years now. He managed to steal find some clothes, ill-fitting, a coat that was too big on his underfed frame, a scarf wrapped about his neck. He was a mess, long copper hair in tangles past his shoulders, his beard untrimmed, a frantic fear in wide blue eyes as he tried to find somewhere to hide, somewhere to get his bearings. He couldn't let Trent find him again. This was freedom, and he would not give it up.

A soft meow caught his attention, and he looked up in surprise as a small orange tabby approached him. For the first time in a long while, Bren smiled.]
Hello there... [The little creature sniffed his outstretched hand and headbutted his fingers. It was the first kind touch that he'd known in so long, he almost teared up over it.] Well, at least I am not alone anymore. That's comforting.

[Now if he could just figure out what the hell he was going to do, where he was going to go.]

Date: 2023-04-24 12:36 pm (UTC)
zauberdecke: <user name=rem0sss site=twitter> (Essek ♠ Keep me in the dark--)
From: [personal profile] zauberdecke
[ They did have much to make up for; it had been a long few weeks. Especially for Essek with all of the ceremonies and the functions that were inherent within the Kryn Dynasty. He was tired of them all and now he was sitting across from the guy who represented safety and warmth to him; and to be fair-- All Essek wanted to do was burrow himself into those arms and lose himself so completely in kisses.

Until he forgot who he was; until he was no longer Essek of Den Thelyss but Essek, Caleb Widogast's boyfriend-- until he remembered that clearly and it came to the forefront with blinding hot strength. He held the smaller of the packages and then he pressed it to Caleb, a smile on his lips. ]


This.. I thought it would be very useful to us for situations in which we are apart, I hope that I am not talking liberties.

[ Underneath the pristine wrapping, of purple ribbon and tissue paper-- there was a set of carved little stones in the shape of cats, on them engraved, one with an E and then one with a C. Sending stones, tailored for them. They had sent messages to each other but they had been limited by spell slots whereas these stones did not need to be. They could talk all night if they wished. ]

I missed your voice very much, and I bought them because the messages were never enough for me-- I wanted to have those moments where it felt like we were laying in bed together, talking.

Date: 2023-04-24 09:50 pm (UTC)
zauberdecke: <user name=noxarcanaart site=twitter> / Commission - do not take (Default)
From: [personal profile] zauberdecke
[ Essek watched with held breath as Caleb unwrapped his gift, and he glowed softly with pleasure when Caleb expressed his delight in such an effusive way-- and Essek was spellbound, he was so very spellbound by the beauty of Caleb's presence. The pale skin, the locks of red hair casually tied back, the freckles that kissed skin-- freckles that he wanted to kiss, ever. single. one. ]

I am glad that you love them. And now, I get to hear your voice when we are apart. Your voice is my favorite sound, you know.

[ He was beginning to understand that it was alright to express oneself, to not hide behind a facade. Such things he had learned from his family back at the Dynasty. But Caleb taught him to feel and not be frightened of those feelings. He reached out then to take the cat sending stone, his fingers closing around it, his fingers closing around Caleb's to give that hand a soft squeeze before he pulled away.

With precision though he took the package offered and he unwrapped it just as carefully. The holly and decorations were placed to the side so he could keep them, the paper could be used to write notes on, to Caleb. Once the twine was undone, his own exclamation of happiness came in the form of pulling up the warmly knit scarf, in colours that were his favorites. If anyone had asked what his favorite colour was? He would've said orange because it reminded him of Caleb. ]


It is perfect, I love it! [ He offered it to Caleb and murmured softly. ] Would it be acceptable to wear it now? Would you please loop it around my neck? [ Because Essek was going to do it anyways, wear the scarf ]


Edited Date: 2023-04-24 09:51 pm (UTC)

Date: 2023-04-25 01:46 am (UTC)
zauberdecke: <user name=noxarcanaart site=twitter> (Essek ♠ Out in the stars there's one)
From: [personal profile] zauberdecke
[ Essek ducked his head softly as Caleb wound the scarf around his shoulders, it smelled of fir trees and warmth, it represented family and hope, mugs of Cidar that Una made them on cold winter weekends when both Caleb and Essek would make their way to Blumenthal to visit. Of hugs that Una gave him, hugs that he had at first been unused to but had eventually come to crave because he did not get those at home. He flushed and it had absolutely nothing to do with anything related to a chill. The two of them, nlused out from their emotions and their feels. ]

Well we will be able to sleep together tonight-- [ Essek would insist upon it. ]

This next present.. ah..

[ It was more unertain, it was very personal, especially for a wizard and perhaps even more presumptuous. It was not something that another wizard would likely accept.. if they were older. However, Essek picked it up and settled it gently on Caleb's lap. A piece of hair falling in his own eye. ]

If you do not like this.. I will understand.

[ It held a firm weight to it, and when Caleb unwrapped it.. he would find a leather bound grimoire. A beautiful creation of a spell book with a sun etched on it as well as a moon-- worked together so that they twinned. The colours were like sunset with little stars going around the peripherial.

When Caleb opened up the book, on a little nameplate, etched softly, 'this grimoire belongs to Essek Thelyss &' and then a little blank after it where Caleb could put in his own name. ]


It's a.. ah.. shared spellbook.

[ Essek was hasty to add ] I thought that we could work on some spells of our own, and then write the finished product in this book.. together.


Date: 2023-04-25 02:45 am (UTC)
zauberdecke: <user name=fluffmonger site=tumblr> (Essek ♠ I heard the music play forever)
From: [personal profile] zauberdecke
[ Oh how Essek been so worried about of Caleb would like it; his heart thudded in his chest with tense anticipation for how Caleb would like it. And that anticipation was nearly painful. Oh how his breath released though as Caleb made his pleasure known-- that he loved it. He was about ready to say something, to respond, when he was tackled back by his redheaded boyfriend, he went back.

If he had wanted to, he could've stood his ground and used gravity to keep him upright. But he did not want to, he wanted to be pulled down into the chaos of feelings that was Caleb Widogast, and so he went backward. Locks of hair all over the bedclothes while he looked up at his boyfriend fondly ]


I love you.. very much.

[ He murmured as he looked up at Caleb; his voice quiet and tentative. But for all the quietude, it was not a question, only a statement. ]
Edited Date: 2023-04-25 02:45 am (UTC)

Date: 2023-04-25 03:02 am (UTC)
zauberdecke: [ TBD ] (Shadowgast ♠ We're past the point of)
From: [personal profile] zauberdecke
Caleb...

[ Essek whispered before his lips were caught, soft and warm. His fingers moved up to cup those cheeks as he succumbed to the sweetness of the kiss; and the words behind it. Regard that Caleb felt for him, communicated through common. The flow of feeling through him was powerful and he would always remember it, remember the way that Caleb looked down at him as if he was the world. Would always remember how his world became complete in this moment.

His eyes slid closed as he gave himself to the feelings of his zemnian boyfriend, the weight of him-- the lower subtle taste, the elation of knowing that Caleb 'loved' him. ]

Date: 2023-04-25 12:43 pm (UTC)
zauberdecke: <user name=zmeess_art site=twitter> (Essek ♠ You hold me without touch)
From: [personal profile] zauberdecke
[ This moment was soft, it was tender and vital.

It was necessary, and in between kisses-- his eyes fluttered, as if he could not help but look up at the other guy as he pressed lips to lips, though each time Caleb touched down, his eyes closed, as his heart quivered in his throat in that affect that his boyfriend had on him.

And with each kiss, a sheen of plum that filled his cheeks further; perhaps even a tender bite of teeth against lower lip as if his own love could not be contained behind hearts and walls now that they had revealed to each other. ]

Date: 2023-04-27 02:04 am (UTC)
zauberdecke: <user name=noxarcanaart site=twitter> / Commission - do not take (Default)
From: [personal profile] zauberdecke
[ He had forgotten about presents, the only one that he felt mattered was the lips raining down on his own and robbing him of breath. Essek did not need lungs, surely he could breath in other ways-- ways that involved something other than the removal of lips. However, he knew that Caleb did not want to be carried away yet-- and so he pressed a firm and soft kiss to those flushed lips and then his eyes, glowing, regarded Caleb.

Love radiating fron evey pore that he possessed under skin before finally he attempted to struggle his way up-- though he would need Caleb's help to make it seamless. ]


Another present, after a wealth of kisses? You spoil me, Chathiu

[ and then there was the soft kiss of mouth right against forehead, a testament to his care and devotion for the other guy; overflowing and blissfully happy. And it was so easy to believe that he could be happy like this forever, he felt sure that it was attainable. ]
Edited Date: 2023-04-27 02:09 am (UTC)
zauberdecke: <user name=salaidard site=twitter> (Essek ♠ You tell me I'm a grain of)
From: [personal profile] zauberdecke
[ Those smiles became more and more because of Caleb, because of the warmth that the other wizard brought to him; Essek would've done anything for the other student and it showed. So very carefully he opened the package, a statement wants to fall from his mouth that his birthday had never been made a big deal of, considering that it fell within the scope of Kryn Religious Holidays.

It touched Essek though that Caleb always remembered his birthday like this.

Once he saw the components pouch, his breath caught. It was the most beautiful worked bag he'd ever seen; the leather smelled new and fresh, the workings of stars within it and as his fingers tenderly pulled the drawstring, the magic within hit him upon opening. There was so much more room in here, it would be plenty for anything he bought. ]


It is beautiful.. [ And Essek recognized that it was dear; probably had cost him much and thus he would accept it; in Drow culture- it was unpardonably rude to say things such as 'you shouldn't have' or 'I couldn't possibly accept'. This pouch would be used and would be loved. ]

Thank you, Caleb Widogast. I love it, and I love you.

[ He leaned in to brush a kiss to Caleb's jawline, soft and gentle ]

However, the greatest gift that I ever received remains you, yes? My beautiful Zemnian boyfriend.
Edited Date: 2023-04-27 12:23 pm (UTC)

Date: 2023-04-28 02:32 am (UTC)
zauberdecke: (Shadowgast ♠ and you are the wolf)
From: [personal profile] zauberdecke
[ his arms wrapped around Caleb's shoulders as he allowed himself to be pulled onto Caleb's lap, resting his cheek against the top of those ginger waves. There was such a beautiful give and take and he let his fingers twine through those fragrant locks in an act of such unmitigated intimacy. His mother would have been scandalized by the fingers in hair-- but he had been doing it secretly-- and he had been touching that hair long before they had kissed like it was some hidden little act of sin just for him.

And he did not care.

Honestly, with the Dynasty, it was irrelevant in all aspects of the word; he felt other to them now as if this Zemnian guy was his tether to a life different than the one they had plotted out for him. For Caleb, he would go against the grain, would fight to stay here for as long as Caleb wanted him. ]


Usually when you tug me onto your lap, it means one thing Herr Widogast..

[ He teased, and oh what a beautiful thing to have the freedom to do so. Such a far cry from the young boy of years ago who was unused to teasing her jokes- so quiet and with eyes far bigger than their face. That boy that Una had taken an instant nurturing instinct toward-- the boy who had clung to Caleb's hand as if overstimulated quiet.

Turning into the young man with the fond smile who was devoted to Caleb Widogast irrevocably ]

Date: 2023-04-28 01:58 pm (UTC)
zauberdecke: [ TBD ] (Shadowgast ♠ We're past the point of)
From: [personal profile] zauberdecke
[ It was Caleb, it was always Caleb who brought out this airy frivolousness in him. He was still serious to a fault, especially in classes where he was one hundred percent focused on his schoolwork though a smile could be coaxed from his lips from his wizard, only his wizard. Outside of the acadamy; he was also content to stick close to Widogast's side, robes worn a bit longer to obscure those handholds-- even if it were only the linking of pinkies to establish at least one point of contact.

He smiled against those lips while he adjusted himself to straddle those hips. He also knew that if he leaned forward- he could easily topple Caleb back onto the bed and the way was clear as they had pushed their gifts to an unoccupied part of his ginger wizard's bed. Of course, it was a bed that Essek had fallen into trance in more often then not over the course of the year.

Even though their relationship was not a year old, he'd found himself succumbing to those intimacies that made a kiss nearly natural and inevitable. ]


We do have much to make up for-- because if we factor in that we kiss at least 10 times a day, and we have been apart for approximately 10 days.. [ it seemed like much longer ] Deductive reasoning dictates that we have at least 100 kisses to make up for, and then we have an accrual of interest to factor in as well.

[ He leaned down to lightly take Caleb's lower lip between his teeth and gave it a light tug ]

We have four days before classes start-- do you think that will be enough time? We will have 40 kisses to add onto that, so we shall have to clear 140 kisses to start anew on the fifth day..

Date: 2023-04-30 02:00 am (UTC)
zauberdecke: <user name=noxarcanaart site=twitter> / Commission - do not take (Default)
From: [personal profile] zauberdecke
Well, I do not possess the Keen mind that you do-- so I am unsure of the hour or the minute, but it does feel like it has been forever since we've been together.

[ It felt right to drape over the top of him, their lips making connections to each other, holding and lingering upon each kiss as if it was a star that hung from the sky-- stars that were meant for him. The universe hummed with possibility and Essek could feel his boldness grow with each loving press of mouth to mouth.

His beautiful boyfriend who lay there and perhaps willing for laying in bed for the rest of the evening, and Essek certainly did want to indulge; in fact if he was being perfectly honest-- he would not mind just spending the time in Caleb's arms, alternating with the need for food and sustenance. ]


Four days.. whatever will we do with all of them?

[ And then because 100 kisses felt too easy, he continued ]

I see no reason why we should not bank up some extra kisses, though I hope not to be parted for you until the spring holidays, yes.

Date: 2023-04-30 04:35 pm (UTC)
zauberdecke: <user name=theminttu site=tumblr> (Essek ♠ Look at all the damage)
From: [personal profile] zauberdecke
[ The dream would continue 100 years into the past, of two young men exploring and tasting each other until they were satisfied with it, after all ten days had been such a long time to go without and Essek and Caleb of a hundred years previous were still idealistic enough to imagine that was the longest they could ever be apart. One day, they would be proven wrong.

Until then.

Essek awoke, sick with longing. Remembering that night keenly, of pressing Caleb into the bed-- their hands fire on each other, Caleb's huffed breath against his ear, his own soft breathing a perfect mirror. His memory was not absolute, but he retained meaningful memories and could recall them, and more importantly how he had felt during the making of them. Of the early hours of the morning as they tangled limbs and Essek's head resting against his boyfriend's chest-- feeling the thrum of heart that would guide him to his own trance.

Ever aware that he would never get that again.

The event was important enough he had to make an appearance but not important enough that he had to stay. He would work a little bit on a few outfits for Bren to wear during events, so that the other man would be able to accompany him-- his mind was distracted. He fed a little bit from one of his vessels, but those feedings were never personal or intimate, not like the sharing of blood from his lover to him-- in which one drank to savor, not to nourish.

It was well 1 am when he came home, slipping inside quietly. He wore a tailored suit that fitted his slender form, and a shirt that was buttoned up to his neck, his feet made no sound on marble. He was elegantly put together, not a single hair out of place. He handed his car keys to Fjord, the butler and then paused in the foyer. It was quiet and he wondered where he would be able to find Bren, his senses could not pick him up quite yet. ]

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