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[Caleb opens his eyes back in Exandria. When he fell to sleep, he'd been safe and warm, held in Peter's arms. Where he belongs, where his heart had come to know was where he was meant to be, in any and all worlds. Now though, now he finds himself opening his eyes in a moment that is familiar, but feels distant. The last moment he'd been in Wildemount before he'd found himself snatched away by the Fox and her request that wasn't quite a request so much as a command. It's disorienting, like being dropped into a deep pool of cold water, not entirely sure which way gravity properly existed, no memory of how to breathe like this.
He takes stock almost desperately. Yes, this is his own world. There's a terrible moment where he wonders if all that time in Folkmore had been some incredibly vivid dream. But no, that's wrong. It's impossible. His imagination has never been so talented, and his heart knows all too well that it was real -- the people he'd met there, the things he'd done. Peter. Immediately Caleb reaches for that bond that has kept them in each other's minds, the comforting, warm presence of his lover. 'Peter!' But no answer comes. It feels like the connection is still there, some vague promise that somewhere, across whatever realms and worlds may be, Peter Rumancek is still alive. He looks quickly to the red string around his pinky -- and it's still there, still tied securely, but it trails off into nothing after only a few inches, connected to nothing.
No. No. The frantic sound he nearly chokes on wakes Veth, and she's quick to ask him what's wrong. He tries to explain it, he really does, to Veth, to the others. Again and again. But they don't know what to make of it. They know that Caleb has been here all this time, had he been dreaming? He tries to assure them that no, he hasn't been dreaming, he's been in another world all together, for months, longer. His friends are kind, and they humor him -- or they worry. Caleb knows they're worried. He tries to pick up and move on.
Time passes, and there's a new and somehow deeper sadness in Caleb, a new loss that is fresher than his older regrets and sorrows. He's quieter, and his friends notice him fidgeting with his fingers lost in thought, the small one where that limp invisible red string is wrapped, his ring finger that feels so empty without the simple band that Peter had placed there.
By day, he keeps going. They have important goals to accomplish, things that cannot go neglected. But oh the nights are hard. Cold and empty. Sleep barely comes, and when it does, there are dreams of beautifully blue eyes and a rakish smile, a face that he fears even with his keen mind he might be forgetting. A month passes, longer.
They've returned to Zadash to check in with the Gentleman -- Jester's father, apparently, so there's that -- a sort of returning to their roots, the place they had begun. Caleb is there, physically, but there's still a distance about him, as if his mind is elsewhere. It is, of course. It's chasing his heart, which never did make the trip back to Exandria with him.
They make their way down into the Gentleman's lair, greeted warmly by their crime-boss sometimes-patron. Caleb is silent, lingering in the back of the group as conversation spins up in cheerful catching up.
What the wizard doesn't notice is that his familiar has wandered off, Frumpkin quite certain that he's caught a very familiar scent. The small orange cat seems intent on finding something, on a feline mission with his wizard's best intentions at heart.]
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Date: 2023-05-04 05:12 am (UTC)the city, he learns, is called zadash, on the continent of wildemount. he's in fucking exandria. peter's not sure whether to laugh or cry, so he spends a few minutes in a truly disgusting alley doing both before wiping his face, pulling his hair back properly, and going deeper into the dingy part of town. no point in going the other direction; he has no money, and his clothes are completely wrong for passing as any sort of upstanding citizen here.
not that peter has ever passed as any sort of upstanding citizen in the first place.
but even the slums are a place to pickpocket, especially at night when fools deep in their cups get tossed out of bars. his people have been cutting purses since time immemorial, and peter is usually kind enough to only lighten the sodden wretches' purses by half. it's enough to eat, and then to buy clothes that actually blend in. he steals a dagger out of a still-warm body - whoever put it there didn't care enough to take it back, and needs must. peter has never been squeamish, and lately he doesn't feel much of anything at all, even though he can't stop the tic of twitching his pinky finger.
this turns out to be what gets him accidentally recruited. apparently, the dagger's previous owner recognizes the hilt in peter's belt, and a week later, with the help of a few friends, beats peter about the head enough to make him amenable to being dragged into a dingy pub to meet with a exceedingly polite and well dressed shark of a man who happens to be blue and rather sweaty. even with his nose numbed from the stink of the streets, the gentleman still smells of the sea. along with the concussion, the gentleman gives peter a job.
he settles into the mercenary life as well as can be expected, following the well trod if stereotypical path of his ancestors, even if it barely feels like he's living at all. it turns out that as a human, peter is a clean killer; he like daggers and shadows. he still has his familiar abilities, and it doesn't take long for him to learn the forms of a rat and a crow, both of which are plentiful in the area and easy to use for sneaking into all sorts of places. he doesn't love being a crow--exandria seems to be fucking with him right and proper because it's his own world that names crows as seers and messengers of the dead, damn it all. it's what he gets for dying a few times, he supposes, with a vague hope that the raven queen isn't taking that too personally, since it wasn't here. most of his feelings are vague.
his senses aren't vague, though. his nose is blind to the smell of all manner of waste, but he can scent every being in any given room, and further if it's clean. this is his real value to the gentleman, the ability to change shape, to have sharp hearing and a wolf's sense of smell. it makes him good at security and stealth, though he's had to put his good boots away in favor of ones with softer soles that barely make a sound moving over stone or wood.
peter is sitting at a table toward the back of the leaky tap, the hood of his cloak up to keep his face in shadow. his hands wrap around the ale he's drinking, fingerless gloves covering his rings. after figuring out that the local water didn't particularly agree with him, peter's developed a hell of an alcohol tolerance, which means he sleeps like absolute shit. too many of his dreams are filled with caleb, and sometimes peter wakes up absolutely sure that the smell of the other man hangs on his dingy pillow.
he's on security right now, just in case the brute intimidation isn't enough. eyes aren't needed for this work, and peter just lets his mind float away until the sounds or scents in the room change. he may as well be a wolf in truth, guarding his master while napping at the hearth. the sound of a crowd of people entering doesn't make him raise his head. they're certainly loud, but they don't reek of anger or fear, and the gentleman can handle the politics of any other kind of ill intent on his own.
peter knows he hallucinates sometimes, imagining caleb's scent, so when the pack of loud travelers brings that in with them he doesn't look up. but then, a very familiar ginger cat hops straight up into his lap and begins to purr and knead his thigh, and peter's pinky finger tics.
this time, the thread pulls taut, and he looks up, frozen. ]
Iubit?
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Date: 2023-05-04 05:31 am (UTC)He feels the tug of the thread at his finger, but he's felt that phantom twitch before, wishful thinking or a memory of the comforting feeling growing a bit too vivid. He's quite ready to ignore it, but the pull remains taut and his heart aches sharply. If he turns and sees nothing, it'll shatter something in him further, where it's already in pieces inside him. So instead he shuts his eyes and takes a breath to steady himself, stays still, damn near motionless.
Until he hears that voice. Then all the breath vacates his lungs at once as he turns abruptly, eyes wide and almost desperate in their hope, scanning the dimly lit room until he sees--]
Peter?
[He can barely summon up enough breath to whisper the name, taking a faltering step towards the hooded figure still in shadow, then another, another, following that thread as his heart tries its best to vacate his chest through his ribcage.
It's Peter. Here. Is he dreaming again?]
Mondschein?
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Date: 2023-05-04 05:45 am (UTC)Caleb. Oh my god, iubit, finally.
[ in the middle of a crime syndicate pub and completely oblivious to their audience, peter wraps caleb in a hug that is clearly actually clinging, and buries his face in the other man's neck.
then his mind bursts open, and he nearly staggers with the new strangeness and sweet relief of not being alone in his head anymore. he can't tell what either of them are feeling, or if they're just feeling the same crushing sorrow and spun-glass-fragile hope and the sort of bone-deep resonance of home and love and mine. some faraway part of peter is aware that he's silently sobbing onto caleb's shoulder, but that seems insignificant at the moment. ]
Please tell me this is real, iubit. Tell me I'm not dreaming.
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Date: 2023-05-04 06:04 am (UTC)And it certainly is a proper embrace. Caleb wraps his arms around Peter like he's half terrified the other man will vanish, will be ripped straight from him if he does not hold tight. He winds his arms around his neck, fingers sinking into his hair. His head turns to bury his face against Peter's hair as an audible gasp rips from him as that connection that has been so silent and so empty flares to life and Peter floods into his mind.
He can't tell where their emotions begin and end, relief and fear, the lingering ache of that emptiness and the rush of wild hope. Caleb has forgotten everything save for the man in his arms -- where they are, his friends who by now have noticed his absence and are watching him hold to this stranger like he is the only lifeline in a storm that Caleb has nearly lost himself to.]
It has to be real. You have to be real. My gods you're here. I've missed you. I've missed you so desperately. How are you here? Are you all right?
[He's rambling; he knows that. And Peter is not the only one currently sobbing.]
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Date: 2023-05-04 01:25 pm (UTC)[ he lifts his face, wet and red around the eyes, and lets go of caleb enough to guide his head up with a gentle, callused hand until they're looking each other in the face. resting their foreheads together, peter almost manages a smile. ]
I have something of yours that you goddamn better want back. But I'd have to stop touching you to take off my glove, and fuck that for at least five more minutes.
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Date: 2023-05-05 03:30 am (UTC)[Even his mental voice sounds choked with tears. But Peter is here, solid and real in his arms, warm as he's ever been. Caleb doesn't want to let Peter out of his arms for a moment right now, but he loosens his hold just enough to lift his head at that gentle urging, eyes opening to take in his face, those features that he loves, that he's missed so much.
At the mention of the nein, he does remember that his friends are there. That can wait for the time being. A quiet sob of a laugh at those next words.]
Of course I want it back. And I will enchant a new ring for you. My love. I have missed you so much.
[A pause as it does occur to him where they are and what that means, and what he says next is out loud, and somewhere between startled and amused.]
You're working for the Gentleman?
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Date: 2023-05-05 03:49 am (UTC)[ peter gives a wet little laugh at caleb immediately promising to enchant him a new ring. the fact that they're making a scene still doesn't occur to him--the only thing that matters is that his soulmate is here, now, surrounding him with the scent of wildfire and ink. ]
You better. I just about lost my mind when I woke up and it was gone.
[ caleb's startled statement makes peter laugh more genuinely. ]
You're shocked that the miscreant Rom ended up here? I'm a very good guard wolf cause the Familiar stuff stuck, and I learned pickpocketing and shoplifting on my grandfather's literal knee. Discovered I like daggers, the Gentleman likes having someone who can hear what's happening upstairs and smell anyone who doesn't belong here, and a fuckoff huge wolf makes a statement when you need one.
[ he knocks his forehead gently against caleb's. ]
Needed something to do while I was waiting for you to wander in, and the Gentleman works with all sorts.
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Date: 2023-05-05 04:05 am (UTC)I will. I like seeing it on your finger.
[That small sign that Peter is his. As much as he likes the ring on his own finger for that same reason. His heart is fully taken, given freely and willingly to this beautiful man with a wolf looking out from behind his eyes.]
My favorite miscreant. [He agrees happily, tilting his chin just enough to graze his lips over Peter's, barely a touch at all.] I am not letting you go again.
[And off to his left, just behind him, there's a sound of a throat clearing, a gentle but insistent ahem and a little blue tiefling looking at this reunion about to burst from the effort of giving them the time and not interrupting when she has so many questions.]
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Date: 2023-05-05 04:27 am (UTC)[ at the moment, peter's eyes are crinkled at the corners, smiling at caleb more clearly than his mouth. the wolf seems close in his eyes, not quite the wise one but not the vargulf ether, more like an intelligent alpha predator, even though there's only adoration for caleb in his gaze. his normal scruff is a beard now, and his hair is pulled into a secure bun low on his head, even if there are somehow still stray bits falling out around his face. ]
Like I'm ever letting you go?
[ peter glances over caleb's shoulder at the little tiefling who is clearly about to combust, and the rest of the strange crowd caleb arrived with. ]
With you in a minute.
[ then he lifts caleb off his feet and spins him around as though he weighs nothing at all, puts him down on the floor, and kisses him with the most furious tenderness he's capable of with his clothes on. ]
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Date: 2023-05-05 04:45 am (UTC)For now though he'll hold onto the relief that Peter is in his arms whole and smiling at him with those endlessly blue eyes.]
Good.
[He starts to glance over his shoulder when Peter speaks to someone, but is distracted in the next moment by the arms tightening around him. A laugh -- all relief and affection -- slips free as he's spun, arms winding around Peter in turn. The kiss steals his breath, trips his heart and reminds him what it is to be alive and loved and home, and he kisses Peter back with all the relief and desperation and yearning that he's nearly overflowing with.
Meanwhile his friends are just plain staring at their wizard and his apparently very-real dream boyfriend.]
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Date: 2023-05-05 01:22 pm (UTC)which doesn't at all stop him from kissing caleb until they're both half senseless with love and relief, but it does mean that he stops after a good minute. after staring into caleb's eyes for another, he pulls away enough that they can both face the nein, as well as the gentleman, without loosening his hold on caleb any more than he must. ]
All right, questions now, little blue one.
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Date: 2023-05-06 02:43 am (UTC)When Peter addresses Jester though, he does remember, and even if he makes no move to put any distance between them, he does turn to look at his friends, having the decency to look vaguely sheepish.]
This is Peter, my-- [His heart, his life, his husband in all but paperwork, but he gets to say none of this because the aforementioned little blue one is piping up.]
Oh my god. You're the dream boyfriend! And you're real. And handsome! [A gentle poke at the wizard's back.] Good job Caleb.
I'm Jester. Caleb talked a lot about you. We were a little worried he was going crazy, but it's really great he isn't. But oh right, this is everybody. I'm sure Caleb talked all about us too, and how basically awesome we are.
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Date: 2023-05-06 03:28 am (UTC)Soulmate. The word Caleb was looking for is soulmate. And I'm not a dream, I just have a fuckin weird life.
Is two men getting married a thing here, iubit? Cause if we're going to end up on insane adventures, we should do it properly.
[ he keeps his eyes on jester, which isn't difficult considering how bouncy she is, and gives a little smile. ]
Hi Jester. Good to put a name to a whole lot of wild stories. You smell like pastries, so points to you. Lemme guess the rest. The pretty one with the buttons is Caleb's beloved Veth, Muscles McAbs over there is Beauregard, Caduceus has the extremely good hair and smells like delicious herbs I have never even conceived of, Fjord is the pirate--yes, I know you're all technically pirates--and Yasha could break me in half with one hand and look terrifyingly hot doing it.
[ he gestures at each of them as the not-really-guessing game goes on, the fingers of his other hand twining through caleb's ponytail, curling and uncurling coppery strands between his fingers. ]
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Date: 2023-06-08 12:42 am (UTC)positioning himself to the side of the threshold with his dagger at the ready, he unlocks the door and opens it just enough to peer out with one eye. ]
What.
[ chatty guy, peter. ]
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Date: 2023-06-08 02:25 am (UTC)The only thing that has him stirring at all is the sudden lack of his personal man-shaped space heater in bed with him.
Outside the door, there's a vaguely tired looking
lesbianmonk who stares at that one eye. Her own eyebrows lift and she jerks her head in the direction back down the hallway.]Yeah, so... it's morning. You two coming out for breakfast or what?
[At the sound of voices, Caleb lifts his head to glance over at the door.] Peter? Is that Beauregard?
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Date: 2023-06-08 04:39 am (UTC)Gods above, are you morning people?
[ that was addressed more to caleb than beau, who he gives a short nod, more a dip of his chin than anything else. he lets the door swing slightly open as he walks back toward the bed, flipping the dagger that was just out of sight in his hand as though it's a nervous tic before dropping it on the nightstand and collapsing back into bed. yep, still naked, does not apparently give a shit.
he has a couple badass scars, at least? ]
Yeah, Muscles McAbs is our breakfast call.
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Date: 2023-06-08 05:13 am (UTC)It's not even that early. [She informs them as she wathes that dagger -- hadn't noticed it at first. Beau doesn't love that she missed it.
But Caleb is too busy opening his arms to welcome Peter back into the bed, running his fingers up along Peter's back.] When we're traveling, we don't have much of a choice to be. My spells only last eight hours. But this inn isn't going anywhere any time soon...
[Beau watches the tender moment, mutters something abut ew, but it sounds fond despite herself.] Whatever. Take your time, just remember pants. Fuck.
[She closes the door and heads back down to join the others.]
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Date: 2023-06-08 02:12 pm (UTC)I worked for the Gentleman. Personal security, most of the time. He's not an early riser.
[ peter doesn't mention that he had barely slept worth a damn the whole time he was separated from caleb - his friends don't need to know that much yet. ]
Makes sense when you're sleeping rough. Less when I have months of sleep debt to catch up on.
Wake me up, you get what you get, McAbs. We'll be down. With clothes.
[ in direct contrast to his words he buries his face in caleb's neck and looks very much like he has no desire to leave bed whatsoever. ]
Since I'm joining you and your misfits, catch me up on what's going on. Fucking hell, I miss coffee.
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Date: 2023-06-10 04:09 am (UTC)Mm... ja, I wouldn't have minded lying in a bit.
[Or like all day. But. That's likely not in the cards. So he nuzzles into Peter's hair and breathes a sigh there.]
There is a lot, Mondschein. A friend we though was dead, is somewhat less dead. Though not quite himself any longer either. And unfortunately he is caught up in some... dark and dangerous things. Interest has grown in many directions on Aeor.
[Just a bit of a fudged timeline here it's fine, this all work.]
Things are about to get quite dangerous. Trent Ikithon's attention -- and the danger that comes with it -- has fallen back upon me, and consequently on my friends.
[A frown now, and his brow furrows, hands stilling as he realizes what this means.]
And you, now.
[Oh no he doesn't like that at all.]
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Date: 2023-06-17 06:02 pm (UTC)You, getting into complicated political trouble and dealing with a possessed previously dead person? How out of character. Trent Ikithon is that shit teacher, isn't he? We don't get a lot of Empire news here, but I hear enough to know that the fucking Cerberus Assembly is fucking awful. Not much respect for your king and his advisors here, but most aren't willing to cross them either.
[ when caleb's hands still, peter lifts his head to look at the other man. ]
Don't you even start, iubit. We still have our gifts from the Fox, and that means you're safer in a fight than you were before. I don't have the experience fighting that you and your friends do, but I probably have enough money to get a new dagger or better armor, and I still don't stay dead. Accidentally found that out soon after I got here. And I'll rip that child abusing motherfucker's throat out if I get close enough.
[ while he speaks, peter strokes caleb's hair and his cheek, looking into caleb's gas-flame blue eyes. ]
I'll tear down the world to keep you, Caleb Widowgast, and I'll kill anyone who gets in my way without a drop of regret.
[ possibly a dangerous sentiment, but the wolf behind peter's eyes is half wisdom and half predator now, and he absolutely means it. ]
no worries <3
Date: 2023-06-18 02:12 am (UTC)They are a cancer within the Empire, ja. Those in power have become corrupt with the desire for more.
[A story that has repeated itself again and again throughout history, Caleb realizes.
He goes still as Peter lifts his head to look at him, meeting those eyes and holding that gaze. There is something overwhelming -- the sort of overwhelming that shattered him down to his foundation and rebuilt him into some better version of himself -- about being loved so fiercely and fully. But he knows he would do the same. He has Peter back, and anyone who tries to take the other man from him would be met with fire and fury the likes of which would make the Nine Hells seem like little more than a pleasant passing thought.]
Peter...
[A soft murmur, and he turns into the touch at his cheek. It's in the next moment that those words strike.]
You died here?
[Even his mental voice sounds like he's strangling forming those words, eyes wide and terrified and furious. Not at Peter, no, but at whoever had thought they had the right to hurt him.]
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Date: 2023-06-18 02:46 am (UTC)[ peter shifts in the bed to cup caleb's face as his expression goes absolutely brilliant with fury, soothing at his temples and around his eyes. ]
Shhh, my love. It was really stupid, honestly. Finishing up some late-night recon as a rat went wrong because I didn't notice an owl. Got my neck snapped while I was turning into a wolf, woke up with a hell of a crick in my back and finished the job. Clearly your Matron of Ravens isn't that interested in scooting my ass to the afterlife.
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Date: 2023-06-18 03:40 am (UTC)An owl. Of all the things he might have expected, that is so far from any of it. But it's a reminder of how fragile life can be. The fact that Peter seems impervious to death that actually lasts is a blessing. What would he have done if he had truly died here, if Caleb had never even known that he'd been here, that he'd come so close--
He tries to shut down the anxious swirl of what ifs. None of that had happened. Peter is here.
Reaching out, he winds his arms around Peter tightly, pulling him close.]
I would still prefer if you did not continue to test her interest. Even impermanent, death is unpleasant.
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Date: 2023-06-18 04:58 am (UTC)I know, pretty flame, I know. [ if he thought it would help anything, he'd tell caleb that this was the least painful death he's had, but he's fairly sure that would have the opposite effect. ] It's not like I want any godly eyes on me at all, but that seems unlikely while hanging out with your friends.
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Date: 2023-06-19 08:05 am (UTC)Maybe so. But I will be with you now, whoever's eyes may fall on you.
[Caleb will burn anyone who tries to take Peter from him to ashes without hesitation or consideration.]
I suppose we should think about joining the others.
[Yet his arms only tighten around Peter.]
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